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20 July 2020 @ 10:19 pm

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New year, new resolutions to break! Ha.

I'm going to try my hardest to stick with my goals. There's not much really... just listing.

- I want to list my daily activities in a journal.
- Must be diligent listing my expenses. Gab and Meg are very good at this, they inspire me. I downloaded an app for this, hopefully (hopefully!!!) I stick to this plan. Maybe seeing how much money I spend will make me reflect at how my needs and wants.
- List all the books I read. Also, I want to read at least 30 books this year. My eyes are giving me trouble lately, I'll see if this is doable.
- cut back the procastination.
- try harder to be sociable. (It's so hard!)
- Give movies a chance. I'm more a drama person than a movie person. I should make a list of all the pending movies I said I'll watch. Any movie suggestions?

Nerissa ♥
30 December 2016 @ 05:07 pm
I didn't want my last post this year to be very negative so I'm posting again.

Despite the very very very shitty year 2016 has been around the world, I have a lot to be thankful for in my life. My family isn't particularly well off, but considering how many has lost their livelihood, their homes, their lives around the globe - I'm thankful to be in a place I am right now. There's just so many negativity around the world, so many what-the-actual-fuck things that happened that make me sad. Newt Scamander is right, humans can be such vicious creatures.

I'm entering a negative territory again.

So here I am, praying. Praying that the coming year is better for everyone around the globe. That we learn to find compassion. And that our leaders, bless them, finally use their brains and little morals they have to make changes that benefit all of us. Let's continue to love. We all need love.

Happy holidays, everyone. May gods bless us all.
Current Music: WE - Shinhwa
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26 July 2016 @ 07:38 pm
I just turned 30.
I’m still a fan of Shinhwa.
I’m not going to get married any time soon.
It’s a wonderful surprise how much Kyra has changed my family’s lives.
I’m honestly worried about a lot of things – some, beyond my control.
I’m still a homebody.
I’m thinking of a new hobby I can do and stick with more than 6 months.
I’m too selfish to have a family of my own.
I should seriously learn Korean.
I plan to be a lot more sociable (but it’s so hard!)
I have no intention to learn how to drive.
I’m trying not to be so short tempered.
I’m making short stories.
I’m still scared of heights.
I’m still a fan of purple, dramas and books.
I care too much.
I worry about my family all the time.
I worry about the world.
I still procrastinate.
I have successfully made my family care about kpop.
They know more idol groups than I do.
I’m not giving up on my dream of watching Clazziquai perform live.
I still pray the same prayer I’ve been praying since I was 9.
I’m more superstitious than I previously thought.
I have less tolerance for bullshit as I grow older.
I need to learn to let go.
I gave up on the dream of getting a tattoo.
I am still naïve about a lot of things.
I’ve learned to love and accept myself better.
I still love love.
Current Mood: thankfulthankful
Nerissa ♥
13 July 2016 @ 06:19 pm
It’s July! My birthday month!

Now that I’m turning 30, I’m trying to look back on the moments that defined my 20s and all I could think of was my family.

I have not grown in the way most of my friends and colleagues of the same age had. What I mean is getting married, having a family, creating a different and permanent home.

I don’t mind it (can’t say the same for my parents) and enjoyed my 20s. I pray for good health on my future years. And if love comes, I’ll welcome and cherish it.
Current Music: Young and Beautiful - Lana Del Ray
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18 April 2016 @ 08:03 pm
I haven't posted about it here before I went to Korea and watch the concert, but my condolences were all over twitter and facebook. But LJ has been a big part of my public confession of how much I love Goguma, so I wanted to post here.

Goguma has passed away last February.

If the news was so heartbreaking to me, it must have been worse for Dongwan and his mother. Goguma had been Dongwan's best friend and constant companion for 13 years. I said this before, Dongwan's relationship to Goguma was his longest relationship ever. His broken-hearted voice when he mentioned Dongwan's passing on a radio show is not something I'll soon forget.

I remember seeing a decade back a picture of Dongwan holding a wee little brown puppy and jokingly said to my friends that for my fanfic, this little puppy would be ours. I found out it was actually Dongwan's pet dog.

We mourn for Goguma because he has been more than Dongwan's pet. He has been THE dog of Shinhwa. We mourn for his loss because he represented so much more than just being a pet. He reminded us what kind of people the members are as they took care of him.

It's so bittersweet to watch I Live Alone with all the episodes he was in. But eventually it will just be sweet, a remembrance of a dog loved and will never be forgotten.
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: don't cry - shinhwa
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06 April 2016 @ 04:00 pm

I didn't know what compelled us to book another March trip to see Shinhwa other than an intense desire to see them again after watching WE concert. Meg and I knew we couldn't go to the encore concert, nor did we like the idea of a hot trip to Korea during August. The closest we could see them together would be March 2016 and on the next seat sale, a few months after WE concert, we booked a flight.

We stayed in Korea for 2 weeks and for our last weekend, we watched Shinhwa's HERO concert. It was a concert celebrating their 18th anniversary, for they debuted March 24th of 1998. Since they didn't release an album, we had a feeling they would sing a lot of old songs - which made me happy! It was something I was jealous of people who watched WE encore concert. I got to watch them sing a lot of old songs! I think the biggest surprise for me was them singing Endless Love as their opening song. I like that they can still surprise us with their setlist, given the numerous amount of songs they had recorded in their 18 years together.

I was so happy they performed Crazy, they don't perform it as much as Angel. That was a great surprise. The song I really, seriously, wanted to hear was How Do I Say and I got my wish. I couldn't have 2gether 4ever (seriously, WE encore concert watchers were so lucky) but listening to How Do I Say and Stories That We Haven't Told had me over the moon.

You think their voices would have deteriorated as they grew older but that isn't the case. I had high praises on their concert last year, and it's no different this time around. Even better, actually. I made a post on my facebook not long after the concert about how sad I would be not to see them for their encore. The biggest reason for that is because nothing, absolutely nothing, could be better than hearing them live. Not a fancam, DVD, audio disc could do justice. I told Meg unnie during the concert, "I feel like they're hugging me with their voices." Especially during their ballads. I felt it deep within my soul.

Not everyone understands a trip that revolves more around a concert than anything else, I get it. But you see, I'm a very homey person, I enjoy the comfort of my own home more than anywhere else. I travel the world through books and dramas. So having a passion for something, or someone in my case, that can drive me out the door is not something to be taken for granted. Thank you for a beautiful 18 years of togetherness. Thank you that for the past 12 years of happiness. Cheers to more years together!
Current Mood: enthralledenthralled
Current Music: Breathin' by Shinhwa